3rd times the charm...my ass.

you could probably tell from the title,
we ended up with yet another bfn.
on a positive note, we are geared up to go at it again this month, with a few changes.
we've never actually gotten to do two months back to back before, so i'm excited.
we're also changing things up this time.
we have never given unmedicated, natural iui a chance before.
we were just told "if you want to get pregnant faster, do this."
so, we did....
and it hasn't worked, so wtf?
after deep thought and reflection on the fact that i do ovulate on my own
and my hsg was completely normal, we decided maybe we should give it a try.
so, here we go...
no meds and we're on our last vial with our 2nd choice donor.
it's going to work this time.
i don't know how many women have gone from medicated to undmedicated iui's before.
anyone have any success stories?

off the topic of ttc and back on to family...
since my last post, things have been very busy in our house.
during our tww, kim graduated with her master's finally!
we had a lot of good family time that weekend.
the next week, i was in austin for a work conference.
i had to reschedule my pregnancy bloodwork because i was in austin at a hotel on our 14th day,
so i just poas there.
that sucked.
of course it was going to be a negative when I couldn't be with k...
and then all i could think about was
how awkward it was putting a test in the tiny trashcan for the maid to see.
i stuck it down in a to go cup :)

it has to work this time.
i'm tired of it not working.
staying positive is really a pain in the ass.

here are a few pics from our last couple weeks:

i was feeling really self-conscious this day...not sure why. 

maybe it was just the hormones! 

kim's blue eyes shined and i was so proud of her. 

i actually got a pic of her on the jumbotron!

it was a really long road getting her here.

m was so cute in the preppy little outfit nana brought for him.

i was nervous about keeping a 3 year old entertained for a graduation ceremony, 

but he did great.

i brought snacks, a few toys and 

factored in some "go out in the hallway and run like a madman time."

this saturday, we decided to run by a new little park close-by.

it wasn't your average park with swings and such...
it was pretty much all climb...m is almost a four year old boy,
he loved it.

until next time,
brooke

3rd Time's the Charm

First thought when writing this post: how many times do ttc blogger women use '3rd Time's the Charm' as a blog post title?! 

Now for the actual post. I figured I would post an update since I am such a terrible blogger and we are on to another ttc try. As of today, we are at 1 day past IUI. This is our 3rd shot at IUI and I hope hope hope it works this time. Of course, we always have hope hope hoped that, but I'm trying to remain positive and not as jaded as I catch myself feeling sometimes. We want a baby so bad! I cannot wait to give my little M a baby brother or sister. 

Details:
CD 3-7 Clomid 50mg
CD 9 Bravelle 125iu
CD 11 Ultrasound - 3 contenders at 14mm, 16mm and 20mm (quietly hoping that the 16 catches up so we have 2 eggs for the umm players to play ball with!). Also do an lh test because that 20 makes us ready to go - negative. Ovidrel trigger shot at 9pm. 
CD 13 36 hours past trigger pre-insem scan shows the 16 did catch up! Give us some twins, we can take it! This was our last vial of our top choice donor and our last shot for a while. Since we're in the middle of the Olympics, I was hoping that there would be a Michael Phelps in there going for the gold.

...and now we wait

Another thought...it looks like at this point I could probably create a TTC Timeline page for the blog and perhaps an introduction page for all the little beings in my cute little house. 

I'm taking care of my procrastination issues, just you wait and see. 

Until next time,
Brooke

Moving back over from different blog...

6 months ago post...Well, I guess I should update

We had another unsuccessful month of ttc. We are officially on a break. After I got the news the day of my blood test, a whole new attitude came over me. I knew that this was going to be our last try for a while and I’m not gonna just sit around and mope about it. I’ve decided to take this time off to work on things for myself. I joined a gym, I actually went to the gym, and started eating healthier. Next time we try, we’ll be trying with a whole new me. 

Until next time.

Brooke

7 months ago post...I can't shake this feeling

As we’ve embarked on this journey of ttc for the last 4 months, I’ve tried to stay as positive as possible. We’ve done 3 unsuccessful ICIs at home and this time we moved on to get help from a fertility specialist and had a medicated IUI on Dec. 28th.

The last few weeks have been hell with all the hormones. I went in this last Friday (9dpiui) to have my progesterone level checked and it was low. It was high enough to know that I did ovulate, but low enough to tell us that my body wouldn’t support a pregnancy. I can’t help but keep thinking of this as a major blow to my being. I keep thinking….”So, I couldn’t just have a baby naturally without intervention.” That’s kind of a hard pill to swallow and people keep saying that I’m being too negative or that I should look on the bright side. While I know that they are right about me trying to stay positive, it still hurts and they don’t know unless they’ve been there period.

There, I just needed to get that out.

I’m feeling the itch today to pee-on-a-stick so bad! I’m at 12dpiui and a large percentage of people get their positives at this point. My next bloodwork appointment isn’t until Friday. I don’t know if I can hold out that long. Although, to tell the truth, I don’t have a good feeling about this time. The only time I’ve had a good feeling about all these tries at conception, was the first try. Then, I landed in cynical this is never going to happen land :( It sucks to think that I just put my body through all this hell for nothing.

Until next time.

Brooke